The End?

I’ve been struggling, in many aspects of my life. You would think I would run over to the computer and start typing out words to get it out, to process, to continue to document my life (such as it is).

But I don’t.

Coming back here is like going back to high school. You have some fond memories of high school so it should be fun to go back and see the old Halls of Knowledge. Except when you get there all you see is the place where you got in a fight with your best friend. The locker that your high school crush who never acknowledged you. The hallway you walked down while looking at the prominent F you received on a test.

It’s the bad memories that come flooding back.

That’s what this space does for me. I started this blog when I was recovering from a miscarriage, staring into the depths of continued infertility treatment, the despair of ‘will I ever be a mom’. Then I had my girls and it was all about the stress of working mom in big city, working mom of 2 in big city, and then the suck of laid off mom in big city.

My life now is changing, mostly for the better, it’s so different now. I’m ready to move to a new space, a space that doesn’t have the ghosts, the demons, the crap. I need to look forward and see myself as I am today, not stuck in the mold of yesterday. I need to graduate and go on to college.

If you leave a comment, I’ll keep your email and let you know where I end up. I will start a new blog again, not sure when, but I will. Mostly because the stuff I’m going through now is big. I do want to remember it, the feelings, the thoughts. I just want to be able to dedicate myself to a blog again to get these things out, which is something I can’t do here.

Love to all and thanks for seeing me through the BIG moments of my life so far.

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